I am going to have my thesis interview soon.

I feel happy and nervous.

Also, I feel a litte regret.

Spending 4 years in the graduate school just becasue of the teacher course, sometimes I don’t know it’s right or wrong decision.

When I graduated from university, I would like to go abroad to study master program in U.S. at first. However, god let me see my father have surgery in hospital at that time. I saw this and began to think about what is the most important thing to me. I know the answer is my family. I imagined the version which my father has any bad things happened when I was in foreign country, I understood I couldn’t afford it. On the other hand, I thought about the meaning of me to study abroad and my ambition in the future life. Finally, I found the key. I wanted to be an English teacher because I love English so much that I know I am good at this. I enjoy studying English. However, I know I don’t want to be a professor in college. Hence, I don’t want to have doctor degree. In addition, I don’t want to live in the foreign country at the rest of my life. I know I love Taiwan very much through traveling holiday study. Also, I felt I was not mature and independent enough to study by myself in other countries. Besides, if I would like to be a teacher in Taiwan, it’s hard for me to get Teacher Permission of Taiwan from studying abroad. Therefore, I have to study in Taiwan. I told myself I could have chance to study abroad in the short term in the summer vacation after I become a teacher. Besides, I can use this budget to travel some places in different countries in the world.

I try to comfort myself that I am right because I do what I like and want. I tell myself that I am lucky to know what I would like to do. I usually understand what I love and which are suitable for me. I don’t know why I always know these things, maybe because I will listen to the words in my  heart and I will make them exactly come true.

Now, the fact is comming! I don’t know I should judge it to be wonderful thing or terrible decison. I think maybe if I can be a public school teacher one day, I will think my choice is right. On the other hand, if I can’t be a teacher one day, I will try to go abroad to study to make my dream come true.

I hope everything will be fine!